day 287 - thoughts

[YetiKing]

was about to figure out scheduling my 1 year follow-up w/ dr gross and thought to drop a note here - haven't been on in a long time and i feel a little guilty as reading so many stories and threads prior to having my surgery was so helpful and instrumental in my decision.  anyway - here goes.  my thoughts are those of gratitude and amazement.  at 9+ months out i don't even think about my hip much anymore.  i do almost all the things i ever did before surgery and do them without a 2nd thought.  pickleball, cycle, tennis, golf ...  the only thing i have not done yet is run.  to be honest and transparent, i'm a little nervous - i don't know why as there would be no reason/indications to think i should worry.  i love(d) running - 10k, 1/2 marathon, marathon, ironman...  there is/was something about the simplicity of long distance running that was meditative and freeing.  when my hip hurt and i stopped running prior to my surgery i would look at people i saw running and be jealous.  now, dr gross never promised i'd be able to run again, but the percentages were really good and was part of the calculus of my decision.  the time is coming soon when i will lace up my running shoes again and begin what i hope is a long journey back.  i have dreams of running my hometown nyc marathon again - coming over the 59th st bridge and getting tears in my eyes seeing people rows deep lined up on 1st ave.  i have dreams of running down ali'i drive one more time.  and yet even if those dreams don't come to fruition - i will always be grateful and amazed.  thx to everyone here and dr gross